I have been watching fosters all morning. I am really bored. Last night I had a breakthrough of this huge amount of confidence... it was like where the hect did this come from? I spent my evening with pj, that is probably where it came from. I feel different when I am around him.
Today I looked up jobs in England and Ireland. Just reading the information makes me excited and scared at the same time. I graduate soon and I have a whole crap load of loans to pay back. I am going to be in debt for the rest of my life... that is the scary part knowing you owe money to a major company. O____o I have this great plan. After I graduate get a small job around the area and save up some money so I can get a car. And save up so I have money when I go overseas. I will have to live at home for awhile so I can get some money saved up. I might have to get my loans deferred for a year so I can at least get some money saved up. I will put money aside for my loans, England or Ireland, and for emergencies. If I do the working overseas I will have to do it in the fall of next year so I can get some money saved up. It sounds easy and jumbled but I know it will take me some effort and patience. But I have to be strong and not fall into the black hole of failure and depression. I keep on telling myself that I just have to do it and if I make a fool out of myself who cares. As long I making it for myself. Who cares about what others think of me. I let them get to me too long and they are not going to stop me from succeeding.
DIRU NYC 2007!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!!
- Music:my daddy watching football